Core Concepts
The author yearns to trade hearts with someone else, even for a day, to regain the feeling of being alive and fighting for their dreams.
Abstract
The content is a personal reflection on the author's struggle with negative self-talk and a desire to rediscover the passion for life. The author expresses deep dissatisfaction with their current state, feeling lost, hopeless, and constantly haunted by the past. They describe themselves as good at "negative self-talk" and having "dagger-shaped secrets" that create "fatal wounds."
The author longs to trade hearts with someone else, even for a day, to experience the feeling of being alive again - to feel their heart pounding, to dance in the rain, and to see life from a different, more hopeful perspective. They want to find the "true self" they feel they have lost and fight for their dreams, rather than lingering in the past.
The author acknowledges that the ones they hate the most are often the ones they love the most, and they don't want to continue with the "petty hate and baseless accusations" towards this person. They are willing to do whatever it takes, even if it means running "for their life, literally" to find this person and rediscover their passion.
Quotes
"I hate the way I make decisions; I hate that I think of the past all the time. I have all these dagger-shaped secrets, and the more I suppress them, the more they create wounds. Fatal ones."
"Just when I think it's all over, I become an embarrassment to my own self. I've stumbled so many times. All my dreams shatter to the ground, and I don't even know what to do next. It's a dead-end; nothing might work out for me."
"I want to hold my chest and feel it pounding, to feel a rush in my veins each morning. To dance in the rain, pop bubbles, and wait for butterflies to land on my fingers. I want to see life from a different perspective, one that is full of hope."