Core Concepts
Living with fear is a common human experience, and acknowledging this fear can be the first step towards finding courage.
Abstract
The author begins by admitting that they are a "big coward" when it comes to the fear of living. They explain that while they have written about hope and life, they have not been entirely honest about their own struggles with this fear.
The author compares life to an amusement park, where one is "bombarded with attractions that will either break your heart or leave you wanting more." However, in life, there is no option to say "yes" or "no" - one must simply "go with the waves of the ocean" and figure it out on their own.
The author expresses a desire for a "manual" or a "fairy godmother" to guide them through the uncertainties of life, but acknowledges that this is not a reality. They feel that their mother's advice, while helpful, does not fully solve the problem, as their life experiences are different.
Despite this fear, the author believes that their fear is also their "biggest hope." They dread starting a new day but cling to the hope of a brighter tomorrow. The author recognizes that there are no rules, and that they can "do it afraid."
The author concludes by acknowledging that their fear of living will always be present, but that this is not the end. They believe that the only way to find courage is to first understand what fear looks like.
Stats
"Life can sometimes be such a pain in the ass. Akin to an amusement park, where you're bombarded with attractions that will either break your heart or leave you wanting more."
"If there were a manual on how to navigate this lifetime, consider me the happiest person in the world. It would be like finding water after years of drought."
"While I fear the person I may become in five years, I also hope she carries herself bolder."
Quotes
"Words alone cannot alleviate the burdens we carry. I can write about wanting to live but still feel like dying, but the act of sharing our experiences can bring a sense of freedom and connection that you and I might need in this moment."
"I started sharing a piece of myself with you to set myself free, for a part of me always believed that living with fear is absurd. But the reality is, I will always be afraid of living — and that's okay."