Core Concepts
Even as a mature adult, one can still feel like they are playing dress-up and not fully grown or developed, due to the responsibilities and experiences they had to take on from a young age.
Abstract
The article explores the author's personal experience of not always feeling like a true adult, despite meeting the societal criteria for adulthood. The author discusses how, from a young age, they were forced to take on adult responsibilities such as caring for their younger sibling, cleaning the house, and cooking meals, while their peers were still children. This "adultified childhood" led the author to feel like they were simply "playing dress up" in adulthood, even as they reached their 30s and 40s.
The author highlights moments that revealed their "adulthood to be fraudulent," such as forgetting to take birth control pills, locking themselves out of their apartment, and making a mess while attempting to cook. Despite having the outward appearance of an adult, with greying hair, extra pounds, and jowls, the author still struggles to feel like a fully grown and developed person.
The article delves into the cultural and societal standards used to define adulthood, noting that these can vary depending on the culture. It suggests that the author's experience of an "adultified childhood" may have contributed to their ongoing struggle to feel like a true adult, even as they have reached middle age.
Stats
"I've cleaned my house hundreds of thousands of times, cooked thousands of meals, paid bills for over the last 25 years, made my own doctor's appointments, and dealt with the aggravations of daily life for far longer than I can remember."
"By the time I reached my 30s, I had some of the things I thought signaled adulthood in a high-income country: my own apartment and a job that paid a living wage."
Quotes
"While I was a legal adult, I felt as though I were playing dress up in my mother's dresses and makeup."
"I'm 54 and sometimes I still don't feel like an adult."