Core Concepts
The content explores the author's experience of being "bifurcated" or "sliced in two" by the internal division between the "me" and the "you", reflecting on the complexities of the human psyche and the challenges of reconciling different aspects of the self.
Abstract
The content delves into the author's introspective journey, examining the duality and fragmentation of the self. It begins by describing the experience of being "bifurcated" or "sliced in two" by the dichotomy between the "me" and the "you", suggesting a sense of internal division and conflict.
The author then expands on this idea, contemplating the possibility of being split "in four" or by "the scene on the other side of the door," hinting at the multiplicity of perspectives and identities that coexist within the individual. The author also references the mundane task of "the washing-up" in the kitchen sink, as well as a forgotten cup of coffee, as symbols of the everyday distractions and responsibilities that contribute to this sense of fragmentation.
The content explores the author's attempts to "chase round [their] brain," as they grapple with the "ventricles bisecting" and "behaviours dissecting" that infuse their days with the "mights and the mays" and the "glorious perhaps." This suggests a struggle to reconcile the various aspects of the self and find a sense of unity amidst the chaos.
The author also touches on the contrast between the "birds and furred creatures" that "hop, skip and dance" in the natural world, and the author's own experience of being "split asunder" and unable to "master" their "life" or the "interminable delays" they face in the city-bound trains. This juxtaposition highlights the author's sense of disconnect from the harmonious flow of the natural world and the challenges of navigating the complexities of modern life.
Overall, the content reflects on the fragmented nature of the self, the struggle to reconcile different aspects of one's identity, and the search for a sense of wholeness and integration amidst the demands and distractions of daily life.
Quotes
"I am bifurcated"
"sliced in two"
"by the me and the you"
"I chase round my brain"
"ventricles bisecting"
"our behaviours dissecting"
"as we laze in the light of forgetting"
"of unwitting blood-letting"