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Navigating the complex emotions of undergoing a hysterectomy in one's 30s after the devastating experience of a surrogate's stillbirth.
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The content describes the author's personal experience of undergoing a hysterectomy in their 30s, following the tragic stillbirth of a child carried by their surrogate. The author is anxious and apprehensive as they wait for the procedure, reflecting on the grief and relief they feel.
The author had been on vacation in Mallorca when they received the call about the surgery, providing a stark contrast between the tranquility of their holiday and the impending medical procedure. The author describes feeling a "world away" from the voice on the phone, suggesting they were trying to mentally distance themselves from the situation.
Prior to the call, the author had been enjoying the beach, carving a crater in the sand to accommodate their "heavy and hard" belly, indicating they were ready to be done with the physical and emotional burden. The author's description of the rock formations on the wall as "familiar with grief" suggests a deep understanding of the weight of loss and trauma.
Overall, the content explores the complex emotions surrounding the author's hysterectomy, including the grief over the surrogate's stillbirth and the relief of finally addressing their own physical and mental health concerns.
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"I twirl the loose curl dangling behind my ear and poke it back into the cap. The blue mesh feels like it's slipping from my forehead from the weight of my hair. I stiffen as if to prevent it."
"I don't owe these strangers bravery. My eyes dart from landscape to landscape of Nevada or Utah or whatever other arid place houses these arches and valleys of reddened rocks. I study the strata of the cliffs closest to my nose; incredible how a rock keeps the score, like a body familiar with grief."