Concetti Chiave
The author grapples with the persistent urge to apologize for everything, even when they have done nothing wrong, and seeks to understand the root causes behind this self-diminishing habit in order to reclaim their self-worth.
Sintesi
The content explores the author's struggle with the compulsive need to apologize for various situations in their life, even when they are not at fault. The author questions why they always prioritize others' feelings over their own, and why they feel the need to smooth things over and avoid conflict, even at the expense of their own well-being.
The author delves into the possible reasons behind this behavior, such as fear of losing others, the desire to keep the peace, and the need to be liked. They acknowledge that in doing so, they lose a part of themselves and end up compromising their own needs and emotions.
The author expresses frustration at always being the one to take responsibility and offer apologies, while the other party often moves on without a second thought. They wonder if the people around them even notice or understand the personal cost of these constant apologies.
Towards the end, the author resolves to break this pattern and choose self-respect over the need for validation through apologies. They decide to let their feelings be acknowledged without feeling the obligation to apologize, and to stand up for themselves instead of always prioritizing others' comfort.
Citazioni
"Why do I always ask for an apology? Why do I always consider others' feelings when they don't even think about mine?"
"Every 'I'm sorry' I say feels like a small piece of myself is given away. I wonder if they even notice, if they understand the cost of my apologies."
"Today, I realize that my feelings are valid, that I don't always have to be the one to say sorry. Today, I choose to stand up for myself, to acknowledge my emotions without guilt."