核心概念
The author explores their journey towards embracing gratitude and the challenges faced in seeking spiritual fulfillment.
摘要
In a reflective piece, the author delves into their quest for spiritual connection and gratitude. Initially feeling uninteresting despite being grateful, they recount experiences from childhood to adulthood where they sought divine joy through various means like music, substances, and intense experiences. Realizing the impermanence of happiness and the futility of avoiding sadness, they eventually turn to therapy and embrace gratitude as a path to inner peace.
統計資料
"For nearly two years, the pinned tweet at the top of my profile has read: “boring and grateful, same as always.”"
"I felt myself cresting toward it at odd times: singing in a choir in elementary school; burning incense for my house’s Buddhist shrine; seeing lanky long-stemmed wild poppies wave from the sidewalk on a sunny day."
"I searched in tabs of LSD in the park, then ecstasy in bedrooms, in getting tied up and choked out and in going to concerts so loud my ears rang for hours after."
"I bounced around this way for my late teens and early twenties, alternatively going on benders and reparatively fasting."
引述
"I didn’t want to be punished by religion: I only wanted to know its divine joys."
"But even as I crashed headfirst into hedonism, I craved what I thought I saw in the affect of monks and nuns — that bright, heavenly, direct line to the spirit."